Thursday, February 18, 2010
I'm not ready..
I'm not ready.
I turn 30 next month. I'm not ready for it. Its on of those things where i thought I'd have so much more accomplished by the time i hit 30. Most my friends and fam my age and younger have kids, some married, things like that. Most have established careers..just things that I thought I'd have. 2009 was a total strain on my life, and i think it set me back a couple years.
The 30's also present a decade where I HAVE to make it the best decade in my life. By best, i mean being productive, establishing my future. If i fail the 30's, I'm pretty sure i can hang it up on life. That may sound harsh, but I'm just being realistic. Its so much i want, and gonna have to get it in these next 10 years.
I know I should have had a wife by now. It isn't that easy, lol. I've been through my small share of relationships, friends with benefits, almost girlfriends...and to date, haven't got it quite right. I've come to the conclusion, that I'm very much sane. I just need to find the same in a woman. Now, this isn't a knock to women as a whole, just my experience. I'll figure that out, in due time.
I'm pretty confident things will work out for me. I have to work through a lot of things, but greatness will happen. I have great great circle of family and friends that wont let me fail. I hope to keep you all updated as things happen.
at 8:41 AM