Years ago, I learned that all people in your life...whatever the relationship was, they are in your life for seasons. For some, much longer...and other times shorter. Sometimes its real amazing how some of those seasons get cut short abruptly. I find my self missing some of those seasons..and others, well....kinda glad of some folks thats not around anymore. I regret folks leaving, wishing things would of been better. I rejoice about others...knowing thats its best that that person isnt around..that there season was like a Detroit winter...just wanting it to be over so that summer could get here. I often wonder am i the season that people want in there life....or am i the season that people want to be over. I pride myself on being a great friend...but at the same time, i know that i can miss the mark and can possibly hurt the friendship/relationship that was there. I know that i can be a great person to be around...but then i wonder if im thinking too highly of myself. I wanna be the friends friend...they person that is looked to as the perfect friend. but i want to have the perfect friend as well....I think i think too much. Or, i want too much. Maybe the things i want mayb are asking too much for folks to be able to give. I just want what i give...dont think thats too hard or too much to ask for. But if you ask me what i want...i probably couldnt put it into words. Ima confused being, lol. That i know. Complicated at times...not on purpose, just kinda happens like that.
This blog probably comes off as major rambling...but its my outlet to get stuff off my chest.
This blog probably comes off as major rambling...but its my outlet to get stuff off my chest.
6 comments:
Life is too short to worry about what type of friend you are. People will group themselves with people they enjoy being around. I personally, don't let others decision of who I am determine who or what I will be in life. There is a common urban saying, "do you" that is a lot deeper than what some could imagine. All you need to worry about is, who YOU choose to have in your life. That's just my personal opinion...
I second Ryan's opinion. I understand where you're coming from though. But the best thing is to always expect more from yourself than you do from anyone else. Holding yourself to the highest standard will always be a sure win. Cuz folks will let you down.
You're gonna be in another person's life for a reason, a season or a lifetime and that's ok. It's not necessarily anything that reflects bad on you. Just the way of the world.
Definitely cherish those that you have.
I think this is your best post to date. Really! Leave that "man of few words" wherever you've been hiding him! lol!
You don't think you can put what you want in to words...but you really did.
"I just want what i give"...I know it more complicated than that sentence, but it probably isn't as hard as people try to make it.
Speaking of seasons...you got me in your life for the rest of the b-ball season cause the CELTS are gonna wipe the floor with the Pistons. Yeah I'm trash talking...and...and...wishful thinking. lol
I agree with what everyone said. Some people are just really long seasons that at some point, we have to let go of for various reasons. It sometimes hurts but maybe it is for the best for all those involved. I think often times thats why some friendships never even entertain the thought of relationships because of the damage it causes, losing people that have been apart of our lives for so long. All of the experiences can be seen as memories and life's lessons. Hopefully you have gotten both and can go on always appreciating the times you did have.
I sooo know this feeling and have had this very conversation with myself...
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