This last year or so had been very difficult. It seems like what ever could go wrong, pretty much did happen. Things are sorta picking up for me, but overall...not picking up as fast as I'd like it to be. Its definitely been with mix emotions, putting my heart on the line, and things not really working out.The next couple things I will mention will probably more personal than I have talked about. Never really been open about some things other than friends, but felt the need to talk about them here.
Forgiving myself and moving on
Last May, I was pulled over for a DUI (Driving Under the Influence). That was the most embarrassing event of my life. It really just felt surreal. I couldn't believe it was happening. I had to stay overnight in jail, and post bail in the am. Since my BAC (Blood Alcohol Content) was.16...which is double the legal limit, i had to stay in jail till that level went down. Just really embarrassing. What did this cost me? I lost my car. Probably about 3 grand in costs..which is on the low end of cost when I researched fines and so forth when dealing with DUI's. I had to take a alcohol awareness class. That actually was really informative..taught me alot about the horrible effects of drinking. And....i was on probation for 1 year. Talk about feeling like a criminal. I had a probation officer, that I had to meet once a month with. Since I stayed out of trouble, I was able to end the monthly meetings in May, and is officially no longer on probation as of July 1st. I know I disappointed alot of people, including myself. People who know me know that i was very out of character for me. Im really tryn to move on from that, just making sure that it never happens again.
Losing my vocation, wanting a career
Last September, I lost my Job. I was CAD designer in the aerospace field. I had been employed doing that for 2 years. I kind of fell into that job. I really didnt know much about the field much, but I learned things pretty quick, and was doing well. Im not sure exactly why I lost that job. It was folks that I worked with that did less, and was much more deserving of being let go than me. I've sorta gotten over that. I'd admit, I really didnt take looking for a new job seriously till recently. It seemed like the longest vacation for the longest time. I dont want to do CAD work anymore. I really have come to enjoy I.T. related things, and really feeling that I want to be in that field. So will see how that goes. I've really enjoyed fixing all my friends pc's! Its been cool, but I want to get paid more for it, lol. I learned residential wiring back in high school, and i been doing that kinda work off and on since then. I just want a job that i like going to, thats all.
My soulmate is out here...somewhere
Im fucking 30!! And i've yet to find that
I think its much more that I could say, but ima leave it at that. I'd hope that no one passes judgment on me. Im just real enough to admit my faults, and make things better.