Sunday, January 11, 2009

A Letter to Darnell


What’s up D,
Its been so different since you been away. I’ve had a lot of sleepless night since that November a couple years ago. I always been wondering why things happen the way they did. I wish I had the chance to holla at you before you left, then again…I don’t know what I would of said. I remember the last conversation I had with you. I was sitting in my driveway, messing around with my car. We talked about taking a vacation that next year and that you was proud of me for just the good things that I was doing. I never got to tell you, but you were the big brother that I never had. You gave me so many good nuggets of wisdom that I keep to this day. And it’s crazy, cuz I have some long standing friendships, some that stretch over years and years. But we didn’t even know each other that long at all…maybe 3 years I think.
 I remember calling you  after I got off work on a  Monday, wanted to hang a lil and thank you for taking me out to lunch that Friday, but i just got your voice mail. That Tuesday morning, was  heart breaking for me, I could believe that you were gone. I realized that when I called you the day before, you were already gone.  I cried at my station just wondering if this was really happening.  My feelings were hurt. The world stopped for a moment, and I just couldn’t understand who could be so cruel to take a man away from his wife and kids and child to be.
I do have a confession though. Every since I went to the baby shower for the baby to be, I haven’t been able to talk push myself to talk to your wife to see how things are going. Its sounds crazy, but I just didn’t know what to say. I felt that I would just break down when I would have talked to her. But I felt that I’ve grown over the years and I will get in touch with her this year, to see how she and the family is doing. I know she’s a strong woman, so I know she’s taking care of the family.
A portion of what I have become as a man has come from the time that you were in my life. I have definitely learned to value the people in my life, because you never know when they will be gone. Really want to thank you for the things you shared with me and times we had hanging out. 
                                                                                                                                                                                Until next time,
                                                                                                                                                                                                Otis

10 comments:

Darius T. Williams said...

wow - so much transparency and truth to this - good!

Super Dave Van Buren said...

This was nice.

RealHustla said...

It's okay if you breakdown while talking about someone you loved and miss.

Call her today! Right away.

Sexxy Luv said...

i can tell this was heavy on your heart.

the letter was the first step, the second step is making that call.

good luck.

Opinionated Diva said...

i read this when you first posted and just couldn't comment. this was just really sad (makes me think of the friends i've lost).

definitely call that woman...see how she and the baby are doing.

i'm sure D is reading and smiling.

Just O said...

Yeah, its easier said. But im looking to giving her a call sometime soon to see how everybody is doing.

Opinionated Diva said...

i know it's easier said...but you are going to feel soooooooo much better after you do it.

Ms. Behaving said...

It's true what you said [that it's easier said than done].

Hope you get around to making the call. :-)

SimplyB said...

This is my first time reading. I hope you find the strength to eventually make the call.

Torrance Stephens - All-Mi-T said...

just wanted 2 say have a wonderful 2009 folk