Tuesday, August 5, 2008

Why..

Why couldn't my dad be more like John Q...
Willing to give his heart for my heart...
Instead, constantly tugging and breaking my heart


Why did my mom lose her job..
Got so frustrated to walk off,Instead of letting the bastard fire her...
Wonderwoman currently on hiatus

Why was i the first male,
Out the projects to graduate from high school since 88'..
Never thought i was accomplishing nothing that great..
Or was it that every other man that fucked up within that ,
And was just doing something normal.


Why did a childhood friend get hit by a car a die when i was younger..
Was the same street my mom caught me crossing with him the day before..
Keep wondering why was i spared and his life taken.


Why did my sister have my nephew at such a young age..
I remember when she told me, i could not believe it..
she told me last because she thought I'd be mad at her..
Its amazing how mistakes can make such great kids.




I can keep asking all the questions ..and never get the answers.
But those things happened for a reason,
And i cant change them. So i move forward..
I will focus on what i can change,
Put my energy in those things..
And make them happen.

7 comments:

nikki said...

best way to do it.

Ieisha said...

Those things helped shape you into who you are today. Just don't let them define who you will become.

Somebody wading in the deep end of the blog pool! I like, I like.

Opinionated Diva said...

awwww @ that first paragraph...I feel you.

Completely agree with Iesha...those things helped shape the man you've become, so they were a necessary evil.

This post was really unexpected...keep 'em coming!

Super Dave Van Buren said...

Man life is full of these types of questions. It's all a crazy mix of destiny and free will

She Needs said...

Couldn't agree with you more on the post.
We all have alot of Why questions.

Torrance Stephens - All-Mi-T said...

with nikki
write it out
sounds like me asking that as well

Muze said...

i think we all have questions like that. always hard to get the answer...

wow @ you being the first male since 88 to graduate. that is sad, really. very sad.

i'm about to be like your mom. lol. i swear i am.

and yes, i know many 'mistakes' who are wonderful children. just wonderful. couldn't imagine them not being here to beg me for stuff... lol.

hell, I was a mistake. lol. and we all know what a travesty THAT would have been. lol.